ok..this is a BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD day..
its the badest day in mi whole life..i know there is no such thing as badest but.. jus ignore that..
correction: it is the WORST day in mi whole life..
i feel as if i have been ripped into pieces and scattered about the whole entire globe and i cant be fixed back.
its like..the end of the world..
ok..i started off mi life loving music like its mi life..
and then i started to hate it..
then i loved it like.. more than mi life..
and here i am, gathering miself..
as in.. ok..i was on holiday..im back..im happi..
home sweet home etc etc.
then i call mi band members and like.. yeah..
they told me they did marching..
they saed they learnt alot of songs..
so i basically missed out ALOT..
but tts not TT bad..
the badest thing was that ms yip had to transfer me to tenor..
as in...which sane instructor wld like.. trans ME into tenor?
ms yip is crazi..
i hate her..
i love mi alto sax..
y did she actually HAVE to make ME trans to alto sax?
worse of all, she did it when i was on hols..
which means tt i had absolutely NO say in this!
and natalie, dun feel guilty cuz u told me..
if i new tt u didnt tell me....(u dun wana noe)
n now im supposed to make a decision...
to play b4 SYF or after SYF..
of course i wld choose the later but i dont like the tenor..
i like the alto... n i jus cant accept the fact that i had NO say in it at all!
as in.. think about it..
if i went ahead to buy the reed in switzerland.. i wld b total waste of money cuz i wldnt b playin d alto sax..i wld b playin d tenor..
n i hate the tenor..
i wanted to play d alto..
it was MY choice to join band..
i CHOSE to play the alto..
n now u trans me to tenor and plan to keep this frm me until 20th of dec?!
its totally...unreasonable..
they know i would blow it..
n they dun plan to tell me..
planning to keep it under wraps until 20th dec
n tts plain horrid..
im so gona quit band..
mayb i wont..
but i wld absolutely refuse to play tenor..
mi parents already disapprove of me joining band, playing d alto sax and staying in sch most of the time..
n now tt im supposed to play a BIGGER sax? no way..i wont stand for it..
and the fact that i cant.. hold the note for more than 5 secs when i cld hold mi alto note for more than 25 isnt just right..
as in..natalie is supposed to b playin tenor..
not me..
its a qs of skill..
not a qs of how fast someone learns..
i feel...guilty.. making him...
plan to take the tenor position...
he claims that he.. wants to go to tenor..
but i tink tt hes not sure..
hes gona regret it..
n i know i will if i hav to plae tenor..
n lyk...
its just a major cathastrophe...
totally..
as in..im so NOT in for the whole changeing sections thing..
i really duno what to do now..
like.. blanche is in..penang..
so i cant consult her..n im not planning to...force natalie to go to tenor...
sigh* im just real confused..
and real worried..
i dun get a thing..
as in..i cant think straight..
like this huge bomb is dropped on me..
n i hav no where to run.
or like.. the walls r closing in on me..
and i cant climb out..
i feel like im suffocating..
as in..d alto sax was mi life..
like..part of mi soul..
i joined band because of the alto sax..
they cant just.....
wipe away what i have been doing for more than a yr..
it just cant end like this..
i just have to figure out a way to prevent miself frm quiting band n making ms yip tink tt natalie is suitable to b in tenor..
urgh..i duno..i'll prob just..thing right now...