seriously, i think im mentally unstable. yesterday, i spent the whole afternoon asking the lil annoying voice in my head to shut up. seriously.. i was like..'shut up!' and im doing it again. it has been saying 'sher, ure so gona like.. FAIL' then i would go 'shut up!' my mum came into my room WITHOUT knocking and she was like..'sher, who are you talking to?' then i was like..'mm..' seriously, im crazi so stay away. hahaha.. yeah. best to call the ambulance and chuck me off to IMH or smthg..urgh... i am soooooo bored, im talking to myself. i was like.. 'sher, how much do you think you would get for history?' and before i can ans miself, this damn irritating voice in mi head goes 'FAIL!!!' and then i would go 'shut up!' and the whole process is repeated and its alll because of band prac yesterday. and urgh.. im stuck here, in mi "room" trying to stay alive and stop being bored when im typing with one hand and poking the bed with another. seriously, i tried to poke the table again but i chipped my nail so i resent tables and shall use something much much softer. aka, the bed. so yeah.. mann..the only thing i like bout mi gran's hse is MY room. hahahaha.. when i sleep over, i have a king sized bed all to myself and compared to my super single, king size rocks. of course, i alwaes end up sleeping like.. duno.. half of it so it doesnt really count but i sleep slanted so like..i dun face the 2 sides. that, is life. and i on the air con at like...18 degrees and it gets all cold and i have like... 3 blankets on me. rox. and then i burn inscence and erm like..just sit down and use the com and the floor rocks cause its so cold and then the window freezes and its so cute and... i could go on and on. i love mi room in mi gran's hse. so nice ya noe? so yeah...im still in mi room, i havnt got mi drink. by the looks of it, im gona get sore throat again but i dun care. it wun kill me. mi nose is still weird. sigh* im still grumpy, no ones online. seems like everyone hasnt woken up yet..sigh* im NVR gona beat yan cong or wai yew or kenneth in english. i swear i wont. i already kissed speech day gd bye and im still dreading it. urgh.. mann.. sigh* i suppose i wld congragulate yan cong or wai yew if they did better than me but if kenneth does..im just gona like..ignore him but i wont be sour. sigh* i brought this upon miself. i shld have at least studied for mi english compo and try to relax for mi oral but nooo...i didnt study but i know its ridiculous to study english. sigh* i supposed i DO have to do more comprehension exercises and brush up my summary skills but other than that, i dont think i have to do anithin else. im gona spend mi whole hols, doing summary and reading up on sec 2 english. the ways of writing informal letters but hello..i already read that so im gona do it all over again to make sure i know it damn well and then excel in english for next year. if i dont, there is just no other chance. and mi chinese..well.. oral sux. i got like.. fine..im not telling in case mi mum reads this.. i KNOW that she KNOWS that i have a blog and from the looks of it, im not gona type ANY of mi marks down until i know that she has forgotten mi add so yeah.. mmm.. im still dreading mi english, geography, science, mt, cme marks for tmr and mi his, math and D&T on fri. sigh* of all the subjects mi damn timetable has to gime all the crap days..urgh.. but still, i know i will do badly and i wld do so badly, i wld like..get...199/200 out of the whole leval and not get top 20% and that sux or i wont even be there for speech day and i love speech day. sigh* this is horrid. sigh* mann.. im nvr gona get a single award for speech day and i have been relying on mi english, history and geography. and from the looks of it, i minused alot of marks for geography and if i dont top for that, i think im gona die and that also means dying for history cuz li ping and shi ting, those total nerds who study everyday and like.. burn midnight oil are gona do better than me because i just glance here, flip flip and memorise while they stay glued to theie seats, studying and mugging like crap. urgh.. mann.. im gona be a total nerd one day and if i dont go to TJC, there goes mi head. damn bloody stress. i cant believe it. im in a NBH sch and here i am, having stress when chris doesnt get ani. urgh.. mi whole damn class is aiming for speech day and i guess i didnt study hard enough. sigh* its the end of the world. im a damn ex pupil of nyps and i cant beat a single person in this crap sch of mine. its a total diaster. im a disgrace to ex nyps ppl and a disgrace to nyps itself and leme see..mi uncle is gona be disappoint, mi aunt it gona be disappointed, mi gran is gona be disappointed, mi mum n dad are gona b disappointed, mi 12 granduncles and aunties are gona b disappointed, mi younger aunts and uncles are gona b disappointed, mi cousins are gona b disappointed, mi frens are gona b disappointed, and to top it off, I am gona be disppointed and this SUCKS. sigh* especially mi uncle since he gets like..top for history in sec sch every yr. urgh..mann..im mentally unstable. boo hoo. sigh* this is irritating. i know im gona post this and after i do, matthew is gona like..say.. haha..u tink u can go to tjc but u noe u cant so too bad. hahaha. this is so lame right? im predicting ther speeches. this is so stupid. aniwax, im gona post this now since im so bored. so yeah. buaize.